Things have been hectic
Having OH at home recovering from his heart attack has had an impact on my working day and as nice as it is to have him around I have been spread a bit thin. He is feeling so much better and getting stronger every day. He walks twice a day and we had our first outing since his heart attack last Saturday.
We went to the Waterfront for lunch followed by a movie. We saw The Descendants with George Clooney. It’s a great movie both funny and sad and set in Hawaii. Getting out of the house did us both good.
It feels like so much is up in the air at the moment. I have something coming up which I can’t talk about yet and it is causing me a lot of anxiety. Financially it is a very difficult time for us. I had just paid off all my medical bills when OH’s had his heart attack and now those bills are coming in. In addition our DSTV decoder decided to die on us and whilst we had planned at some stage to upgrade to PVR this is not the right time for that to happen. Both cars need servicing and before the end of this month my provisional tax has to be paid.
I know that there are many people in far worse financial situations than ours but I stress over debt especially in the year in which OH is due to retire. I am sure it will all work out somehow but thinking about it has my stomach in a knot.
And then there is the family situation that does not seem like it will be resolved. Although OH does not talk about it I am sure he is hurting and I am not comfortable with the fact that there has been a fall out. On the other hand I believe that if you are going to sound off and vent your bad mood on someone else you should at least take ownership of your bad behaviour and not try and make it someone else’s problem for pointing it out to you.